Dillema
I don't know what to do now.
My mind always think about him. I'm thinking of him not because I'm deeply in love but something that hard to describe in my mind an I totally confused. He shouldn't put me in this kind of situation. I better just ignored him like what I promised before but its really hard for me to do that. What should I do now?? I don't know what should I do and what my heart really wanted. Even I said that we just have to be friend but sometimes I don't feel that way. I over think about my relationship with him..Sometimes it feels like we a lover and at the same time me seems like friend. We act like a couple, but I don't get why aren't we together yet.
The way he talk to me make me confuse and underestimate his real intention. This is because he always call me "dear" and I had to admit that he is such a sweet talker guy. He said he love me and wanted me to be his girlfriend and he even proposed to me to become his wife but just like before I rejected the proposal. The reason for the rejection is not because I don't like him but the the true is He still with his current girlfriend and He wanted to have relationship with me and at the same time He wanted to kept his girlfriend. Sometimes I wanted to believe in him and sometimes I feel that he just playing with me. I think he really love his current girlfriend if not so he definitely will break up with her long time ago or even at the moment he proposed to me and I even gave him hint about the reason I still not accepted him is because of his girlfriend but he seems like pretend not to understand and he even said that its ok because he said he feel like he doesn't had a girlfriend. That is his answer and what I really wanted to heard is that he will tell me that He will settled down the thing with her or that he broke up with her already but i'm quite disappointed with his answer. I'd rather be your best friend forever, than your ex in the future...
I don't wanted to have any problem in future just because of my greed to have perfect guy (not really)...frankly speaking, I don't want people to label me as a DEVIL or Slut or anything that bad. Someone who chase after other person boyfie...I even know his girlfriend and that make me to think very careful and its really difficult to me. The only thing I hope for now is to put everything under God's control and If we meant to be we'll together till the end but if not so I will keep its as a memories and experience in my life. Everything is in God's hand..Don't let me makes a mistakes in choosing or walking in my own path and guide me in everything I do and choose..He love me more that anyone do and He know the best for me. :) God had a better plan for me.
I would love to be his girlfriend. But if the only way I can be around him is by being his best friend, I'll settle for that.
"please be honest to me so that I can make my decision"
My mind always think about him. I'm thinking of him not because I'm deeply in love but something that hard to describe in my mind an I totally confused. He shouldn't put me in this kind of situation. I better just ignored him like what I promised before but its really hard for me to do that. What should I do now?? I don't know what should I do and what my heart really wanted. Even I said that we just have to be friend but sometimes I don't feel that way. I over think about my relationship with him..Sometimes it feels like we a lover and at the same time me seems like friend. We act like a couple, but I don't get why aren't we together yet.
The way he talk to me make me confuse and underestimate his real intention. This is because he always call me "dear" and I had to admit that he is such a sweet talker guy. He said he love me and wanted me to be his girlfriend and he even proposed to me to become his wife but just like before I rejected the proposal. The reason for the rejection is not because I don't like him but the the true is He still with his current girlfriend and He wanted to have relationship with me and at the same time He wanted to kept his girlfriend. Sometimes I wanted to believe in him and sometimes I feel that he just playing with me. I think he really love his current girlfriend if not so he definitely will break up with her long time ago or even at the moment he proposed to me and I even gave him hint about the reason I still not accepted him is because of his girlfriend but he seems like pretend not to understand and he even said that its ok because he said he feel like he doesn't had a girlfriend. That is his answer and what I really wanted to heard is that he will tell me that He will settled down the thing with her or that he broke up with her already but i'm quite disappointed with his answer. I'd rather be your best friend forever, than your ex in the future...
I don't wanted to have any problem in future just because of my greed to have perfect guy (not really)...frankly speaking, I don't want people to label me as a DEVIL or Slut or anything that bad. Someone who chase after other person boyfie...I even know his girlfriend and that make me to think very careful and its really difficult to me. The only thing I hope for now is to put everything under God's control and If we meant to be we'll together till the end but if not so I will keep its as a memories and experience in my life. Everything is in God's hand..Don't let me makes a mistakes in choosing or walking in my own path and guide me in everything I do and choose..He love me more that anyone do and He know the best for me. :) God had a better plan for me.
I would love to be his girlfriend. But if the only way I can be around him is by being his best friend, I'll settle for that.
Don't mess with someone else's relationship just because you can't get one
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