I felt Giving Up

Today is very tough and hard day. everything seems not fine and go well for me. I felt giving up on my study and everything. It's very hard and messy day fr me. I get mad easily and I hurt my friend s feeling. I don't have anybody by my side. walking alone and being alone very difficult but at time like this i really wanted to be alone and hoping nobody to disturb me. With little courage and walking with my tears drop at night make my life looks very pitiful. Thinking that I can't do it make me stress. Should learnt from my mistake before but still I don't do it. but when the times come then I realize I'm dead and I don't enough time to study or do the revision. I feel down and do know what to do. Its my fault but I release my anger toward my friends and I left them out without words and make them waiting for me and the worst thing again is I don't even said sorry  or thinking of apologize to them. my bad... I should't do that. I feel guilty but really that day I wanted to be alone but I don't tell them honestly about that thing.

While walking to the class at night I'm thinking and rethink about my action toward my friend and about my study. I gave everything in His ( God) hand to decide what I will face on the next part. But I'm fell very blessed because once I open the paper I feel free and happy because the thing that being ask on the test is all about the thing I read or studying just now. I feel thankful to God and still feel sorry toward my friend.

On that day, I also called my mom because she always give me strength to face or to gone through all my problem. Whenever I have a problem and feel down then I'll called her and that make me think about the best or good thing. She seems know that I have problem even I never said anything to her. Feel tahnkful toward my mom and the most blessed thing is God give me change and ways to handle my problem. I can't surrender so easily.


 Thanks for everything and for the blessed God.