Alone and lonely

I'm lonely and weary with this feeling.

I don't know why I feel this way today.. I need attention. I need someone to look after me, someone who can comfort me and love me. I feel so lonely. when can I meet someone that can always be by my side. Right now, I seeking for someone attention. whenever he didn't show me that he care, it will make my heart hurt and sad. I don't know.. I might fall in love with him already. I don't know... he steal my attentions and make me lost my focus. I don't want to be like this toward someone that I can't be with. I just want someone that perfect for me and not for everyone. why I feel this way, seriously... I just want Him to be my friend and not special one. My heart's hurt when he not shows me he care but what can I do. He does not do anything wrong and it just me who feel this way. Sometimes I think he just wanted to play with my heart and makes me feel "butterfly in my stomach . It just me that feel this way. I just can't wait to see him and every time I see him, I want to be near and stay in his side but how that can be possible. He has someone special and I know he is one of my kind. what I meant one of my kind is I know who He is and I know his attitude. We're same in some point actually and we know each other better. God, I don't know what this supposed to meant and why this happened to me and from what I see I can felt that my friend also feel the same way toward him and I can felt and see it. She want some attention from him. why must HIM, and what so special about him that can make us felt this way. Usually, I can handle and control my heart but why I cant from him. this is not right. I decide to stay away from him and not to care about him anymore, what for? I don't get any benefit for being close to him.

 God, I need someone special that will be with me forever and be part of me. I hate and I dislike being alone and I think this time I need to find someone or hope that God can show/destined me with someone that really deserve me and don't let me fall in love with someone that would not make my life easier. God, you know what I meant. God, If you think now is the right time for me to have someone special.. show me that person and let it be the perfect person for me and who you think that deserve to have me and who I deserve to love I feel really lonely now and I dislike this feeling. Furthermore, I don't have friend that I can spend time with and I need someone attention and love. But if you think this is not the right time yet so please don't make me feel this way. please guard and protect my feeling God know that I can have better one and someone that you been destined for me. If it not the time yet, please make me become more patient than before because I think I'm being patient enough for the past years and please makes my heart comfort. God you know what is the best for me. You know my heart is weary being alone and lonely. You know me better and what is the best for me. I need your guideline, blessing and protetion, God