Now and Forever..I'll never be Yours

I never belonged to you. I was never yours. We were never us. You confused a great friendship for something more than it was, and I'm sorry.

As we putting on the friend zone line to which we will never be together and we will remain as a bestfriend or "friend for boredom". I am just a friend who you need when you feel lonely and alone and as for me it can be the same but sometimes I wish we can move to next stage.. to become more serious in our relationship because we been known each other for six year. I'm not afraid of commitment. I'm afraid of committing to someone who won't commit to me.

Whenever I want to tell you what you really mean to me.. that the moment when you ignore me. I don't have chance to tell you and you pretend not to know how I feel. Maybe because I am the one who draw the line for us that is why you act like that. Sometimes I can't control my heart for caring to much and thinking that we are in special relationship and start asking you annoying question and tried to control your life. When I need someone to be near me or be by my side I always thinking about you.. love how you caring about me in the past but now you don't have time and effort to show me how you really feel about me. I don't believe you when you told me that you love and miss me because I don't feel your sincerely. maybe that is why I draw the line because I don't really trust you. I know you don't care. You prove it to me all the time.

To think about the future, Maybe I should not involve you anymore and just move on and never think there is place for me in your heart and in addition..to think seriously about it. I afraid that I don't really know about you and can't handle and love you. You don't have time and we always being apart.. I don't think I can live like that with you even though now I seems to be okay with this long distance relationship but to tell you the truth I really hate it because I know my feeling for you will fade away quickly like the old time. I love when my love one is near me because I like someone to take care of me and looking for me. When will you can let me go freely and let me find my true love?? I don't want to attach with you anymore because being attach to you make me a lonely person and love being alone and always alone. I want to be love again and I want to love. Please, make me fall in LOVE again like a normal people. I want to feel the love again and hoping that will be my last love.