Dreaming of Him

I have been dreamt of Him twice this year. I don't know why He still appeared in my dream after long time and He is not available person anymore, He belong to someone else. I feel sinned and embarrassed but I don't know why... I Dream of him stare at me and the meaning of his stare that I can't describe with any words and that offend me.. The first time I had dream of him, still fresh in my mind and the recent dream I can't really remember about it.

Maybe my heart still can't forget about him and the love that in kept deep inside my heart still there. Nobody come to replace it. The one that I had crush on for 6 years, and we end up being just friend till He belong to someone. Actually, the things still not settled because we're end up our friendship without words and we just lost contact after being close friend for 6 years. Maybe its happen because I am being hurt and dying without He knowing about my feeling toward Him. Till the end, He don't know that I had feeling toward Him or maybe He know and pretend not to know and don't care about it.

Yeah..its still hurt deep down in my heart. I still can't believe it and can't forget about him. After I spent almost 6 years having crush on him. its wasn't easy for me to forget about him. I felt betrayed or cheat on.

Hopefully, He will never appeared on my dream anymore. I hate it to think that my heart still can't forget about him. the only one whose dying was me, every times I saw his picture with his new family. My heart feel little strange and weird. I hope, I can forget about him and trued my best to throw away the feeling I ever had in him. It really the end for both of us. There is no way we can be together. Even if He will know about how I feel toward him and its to late for that, lets not make it big deal. Just makes it as our best and sweet memories together. my longest crush..Goodbye and please stop coming in my dream. Hopefully