My Diary

I'm in Love with Kimura Takuya <3 <3 Even though he is older by 20 years + then I am but I just love him. I love his acting ability and He looks awesome and handsome in his role in "PRIDE". His characters in this drama is totally my ideal type/dream guy and I really love it. He makes me think of him the whole day..makes me addicted to watched the drama again and again. Satonaka Halu is the best character in all the J-drama I ever watched and its can't beat up. this is my no.1 favorite J-drama in my life.. Even He now is bit old but still love the drama. I'm crazily searching all about him in internet and I tried to watched all his shows and drama. Still working hard to search all the drama he ever play/act because I wanted to see is there another role in his dramas can beat  Pride??? Still looking for it. Kimura Takuya why am I too late to recognize you before??Why not before I know K-drama. but still you're my no.1 Japanese actors now..

I'm SINGLE

I MISS U...

Less than a week, new semester will begin...my new goal for the new semester is I wanted to be a different person from what I've been for the last semester. I don't want to be the old me again. I must set new goal and the new goal will bring benefit to me. I don't wanted to live the way I used to live like last semester. I need to be more strict to my lifestyle..Even I don't live my life socialize but I used to live with kpop world. I have to stop doing that because this is for my own benefit and its not for anyone. I don't want to faced the same failure again..I must stand up and faith for myself again. I've to do my very best...It's might be my time to stopped to be in kpop world and stop being too addicted to it. I really need to change. There are saying that said "When you fail doesn't mean you will fail forever"...I can do my best again. I'll do my very best for this time and for the next semester..no more failure as like the

I can't believe what I saw on his FB today..He is in relationship with someone that I don't know and He don't feel ashamed to tell the world that he has girlfriend. I feel kinda happy and not mad or sad.. No, I've lied.....;'(  I feel little sad and still thinking...and I feel like I wanted to asked it myself from him but how can I do that...I don't have that courage and I don't have the right ..I think its better to let it be than to ask something that nothing to do with me..I'm just gonna be two faces. I just have to let him go..The crush that I have in him for four years ago had gone two years ago before you announce you're in relationship. Anyway, Thanks for the love even though He never knew my true feeling and we never be in relationship..its just one-side love..to think about it now..I'm just waste my time by waiting for his love in the past. My heart is too tired for holding for you and its time for me to let you go. its not mean I

I don't know what to do now. "please be honest to me so that I can make my decision"

I decline not because I don't love you but you know the reason perfectly... The worst feeling you will feel is when you loving someone who has girlfriend

"Sometimes a person has to let go because their heart is just too tired of holding on"

*** Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control

"I'M NOT GOING TO ASKED FOR FORGIVENESS" Your love is true but I can't love you the way you love me.

" He Love Me or NOT "